My heart raced, I looked at the clock every second waiting with great anticipation. I couldn't wait. My feelings never changed. I thought by letting you go, by letting time pass I would forget but I didn't. I wanted you even more, I never stopped dreaming of you. I watched as you approached, my heart heavy, my knees shaking, my hands sweating, my head spinning. I couldn't breathe, I was speechless. The affect you had on me is still here. We belong together. Only time will tell, but one thing remains the same I will never stop loving you. 

 Give your heart to no one.......

" Torture is loving the completely unattainable"

 Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine........

 The anticipation is bubbling over.....you made your move.........and now I shall make mine.........

 Never show your hand.

 It was fun while it lasted. You were an unforgettable past-time.

 Most defenitely pirates!

She could feel the excitement drain as she approached the car. Her heart nearly pounding, not so much as a tremble, she knew then he no longer held her captive. The infatuation was gone. She sank down in the seat realizing the truth of it all. They stared into eachother's eyes, the tension had simmered, the let down began. He was cold and still, he smelled of fear, he tasted of guilt, and looked of regret. His eyes welled up with tears. It was then that she knew what once was will never be, her heart no longer craved his. His actions spoke tones the deaf could hear, he was no longer receptive, her seductive ways no longer enticed him. She understood the distance, she read his face knowing all too well the fate they had met. She stepped out of the car and smiled, realizing the longing has dissipated, lost but never to be forgotten. The thrill was lost, all that loomed was boredom. My dear, i'm afraid i've grown weary of you, she thought.

Thank you for making me feel alive again, thank you for giving me the will to let go.

 For some strange reason London has been calling my name, for quite some time actually. I have a strong feeling there is something there for me. In fact I know there is.

That I am happier on my own rather than being imprisoned in a committment!!!!
 

 Ok, so i've been doing a ton of soul searching

 OBSESSION - uncontrollable persistence of an idea or emotion in the mind, a feeling that completely occupies the mind

INFATUATION - an intense and irrational passion for somebody or something

DESIRE - to want something very strongly, to wish for and request something


If only you understood, if only you knew, if only you felt the same.

 A sweet Valentine's kiss to all my lj friends! Happy Valentine's Day!

 So, I am wondering why it is the people who love me, I don't want to love me and the people I love, don't love me? WTF????? I am giving up hope on any such luck of finding the "one" who meets all the criteria and totally and utterly rocks my freaking world! Guess i'll just resort to being a hater! Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!

 The more things are forbidden, the more popular they become - Mark Twain